body as a medium: battlefield, playground, vehicle, and instrument

You cannot separate the mind from the body, No one has a mind without a body. You can awaken the body, you can train the body to train the mind. It is not a marriage, they are one.
— Manouso Manos
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There is an embodied reality to this practice. The body is not something we are going to escape, until our death. There are different methodologies given in Patañjali’s Yoga Sutras for steadying the consciousness (for those who are already adept, who have made some progress on the path of yoga). These different methodologies include surrender and devotion to God, focusing on an effulgent light, repetition of Aum, and contemplation of a suitable object for meditation. 
In Iyengar Yoga, we train our being using the physical body, as it is concrete and witnessable, whereas the mind is elusive and slippery. When we come to class, the teacher asks us to concentrate on what we are doing: with our feet, arms, legs. Gradually the waves of the mind are steadied and focused on the actions of the body, in the present. This focused attention brings us away from the ordinarily turbulent mind stuff, that frets in the past and the future, that is calculating, deluded, fantasizing… Is our heel really pressing down, is the thigh really turned out? This is something that our teacher can bring out attention to. Are we really doing what we think we are doing, what we intend to do? In ordinary life it is so easy to have an intention, and yet be doing something else entirely that is not at all in line with intentions, and miss that this is happening at all, or our responsibility for that. This discrepancy is revealed when we study our physical body in asana. In this photograph, my front leg is not at 90 degrees, and yet while doing, it felt like it was approaching 90. There were other actions that my consciousness was focusing on: maintaining the pressure of the outer back heel, releasing the back leg back thigh from the inside outward, releasing the buttock bone of the back leg outward, flowing the groin and front thigh forward, lifting both sides of the trunk, and the back legs side even more strongly, drawing those back ribs in and up…As teachers of Iyengar Yoga, demonstration is the first teaching device. When I teach my students something, following the Iyengar method, I show them with my own body. The lesson is something I myself have practiced and experienced. To demonstrate I expose myself through the performance of the asana, both here and in my asana hall, in every class.  The physical performance reveals both the struggle and the ease, the strengths as well as the weakness and frailty of the teacher. The lesson is concrete and embodied—it is not theoretical, not a drawing in a book, or a conceptual fantasy.  This embodied demonstration builds trust that the teaching is founded on a reality that has been experienced by someone (another human being comprised of perfection and imperfection) and the teaching is the experience being passed on. In Iyengar Yoga, the body is nature close at hand, the medium where we explore dualities, and the unity of them.  The performance of posture, the āsana, and even the body itself, may be a prop for yoga, but it is not one that we will shed until we are done, with Śavāsana, the very last pose. Through Iyengar Yoga practice, the body may be the battle-field of conflict as we struggle to discover or maintain health, and it's also the playground for exploration, the vehicle of bliss, and the instrument for transmission.

These days, I might sit and stare out at water and have a experience of vastness and surrender and bliss or what we might called union with God for a few moments without distraction—while doing āsana and prānāyāma, the possibility of presence of attention is being trained for much longer periods.  This grows into the ability to maintain presence throughout life, because of all the training and practice of  awareness.  I’ve come to feel that the main lesson of Iyengar Yoga is maintaining this attention on the art of presence...

 

From finite to infinite

 “To err is human.’ Knowledge is infinite and eternal, but the human mind’s thoughts lie in the field of the finite. The infinite is hidden in the finite, and the finite is hidden in the infinite. In my sadhana I tried to explore finite within the infinite body.” From: “Core of the Yoga Sūtras” by B.K.S. Iyengar

 Rājakapotāsana ~ king pigeon pose“The work of art is born of the artist in a mysterious and secret way. From him it gains life and being. Nor is its existence casual and inconsequent, but it has a definite and purposeful strength, alike in its…

 Rājakapotāsana ~ king pigeon pose

“The work of art is born of the artist in a mysterious and secret way. From him it gains life and being. Nor is its existence casual and inconsequent, but it has a definite and purposeful strength, alike in its material and spiritual life. It exists and has power to create spiritual atmosphere; and from this inner standpoint one judges whether it is a good work of art or a bad one. If its “form” is bad it means that the form is too feeble in meaning to call forth corresponding vibrations of the soul… The artist is not only justified in using, but it is his duty to use only those forms which fulfill his own need… Such spiritual freedom is as necessary in art as it is in life.” —Kandinsky

 “I have wrestled with the angel and I am stained with light and I have no shame. Neither do I have guilt. My responsibility is not to the ordinary, or the timely. My loyalty is to the inner vision, whenever and howsoever it may arrive. “ Mary Oliver .


This pose is not perfect. Within this form are the hundreds of attempts that have built toward it and developed the foundation of intelligence to come this far. If it came more easily with less effort instead of all these years of practice and training would that make this form appear better or worse or is that the wrong question entirely? I will tell you this. Today pursuing it there were discoveries. There was struggle and spaciousness. The āsana is the form for meditation, the object of contemplation. What is happening in that process of play, work and realization is the real art.

 

What is your potential?

This morning I woke feeling sore everywhere. In āsana practice the plan was to reach this pose (because doing it regularly keeps me feeling like I’m conquering my problems which have to do with old injuries that this pose demands be overcome). There were all these thoughts:  I’m not feeling well enough, it hurts too much, there’s too much sensation, my shoulder might strain, I’m getting too old, I should have learned these deep backbends in my twenties or better yet my teens, I’ve given birth to too many children, those children are too distracting, it should be easier, it’s easier for others, it’s too hot to work hard, I’ve been broken too many times— I was watching all this mental/emotional activity... and then I stopped and reflected on how Guruji B.K.S. Iyengar practiced—not just his successes and awe inspiring demonstrations but the struggles he described in trying to master all the poses, his practice after his scooter accidents or his practice in his eighties and nineties. How did he face his obstacles? None of that was easy.  I considered how my teacher has taught me — never giving me an excuse and left the possibilities open for me to find a way —and those negative vrrtis (waves of consciousness) just stopped or were countered. My legs aren’t too slippery with sweat to grasp: they are just slick enough to slide the hands to the knees. The abdomen lengthened, the chest spread over and over into this pose at least ten times.  In the beginning I couldn’t get there. It wasn’t easy to get here. It hasn’t been easy. I needed props, I needed a good teacher, I needed to practice like my life depended on it. I wasn’t born like this. It’s more like how my teacher described himself at the last Intensive, “I know I was born a scum.” Iyengar called himself “a parasite”. Ok, yet let’s see what we can do with those very human conditions that we were born with, these circumstances that we are facing now, and take action through practice.  This is the potential of Iyengar Yoga. We can be born reactive, sickly, miserable and desperately temperamental, like I was, always screaming, allergic to everything... and with Iyengar Yoga we can see if we can do something with our lives. Can we find a way to progress and even inspire others to do the same?

 

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Bhujangāsana ~ cobra pose  

The fire of knowledge

II.42 santosāt anuttamah sukhalābhah “From contentment and benevolence of consciousness comes supreme happiness.’ Through cleanliness of the body, contentment is achieved. Together they ignite the flame of tapas [self-discipline/ burning zeal] propelling the sādhaka towards the fire of knowledge. This transformation, which indicates that the sādhaka is on the right path of concentration, enables him to look inward through Self-study (svādhāya) and then towards Godliness.” Yogācārya B.K.S. Iyengar, Light on the Yoga Sutras of Patañjali, translation and commentary on Sūtra II.42


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Steady does it

 “be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”

—Rainer Maria Rilke 

1.2 Yoga cittah vrtti nirodhah ~ “Yoga is the cessation of movements in the consciousness.” ....“Stillness is concentration (dharana) and silence is meditation (dhyāna). ....(from the Commentary on this Sūtra)

1.3 Tadah drastuh svarupe avasthanam ~~ “then the seer dwells in his own true splendor.” Yogacārya B.K.S. Iyengar, Light on Yoga Sūtras of Patañjali.

 

Showing up to class despite all the conflicts is one stage of effort and discipline (tapas). Showing  up to one’s practice , facing one’s feelings (physical, energetic, mental, intellectual) for longer and longer periods with more and more regularity takes courage and commitment that gradually grows from a small flame...

Iyengar Yoga practice cultivates the sensitivity and strength to penetrate and understand oneself from the outside in: to see and ask and face who and what we are. Uncovering the layers, we see all that we are not. It doesn’t happen all at once. We may want it to, but it doesn’t work that way. The more we grasp the more we distort ourselves. Through long, dedicated inward practice,  gradually one experiences transformations of being and actions.

Daily, attentive practice is the stilling of the fluctuations (both the old patterns and the new troubles), so that the inner radiance shines out

returned!

Dear students,

I'm back to teaching tonight, Tuesday, July 17, 6 - 7:30pm.

Thanks for your patience while I've been away to study with my teacher.

Love, 
Jennifer

Adho Mukha Vrksāsana (downward facing tree pose) in Muir Woods (on a day off from class)

Adho Mukha Vrksāsana (downward facing tree pose) in Muir Woods (on a day off from class)

from spark to flame

The meaning of yoga is to restrain oneself from all bonds of pain and sorrow. Hence, Yoga must be resolutely practiced with a determined mind.
— Bhagavad Gita, VI.23.
Viparita Chakrāsana

Viparita Chakrāsana

 Yoga has to be practiced without distress, anxiety or fear, so that one can reach the zenith in Yoga. ... According to Patañjali, yoga is a discipline... Consciousness is affected more often by emotional upheavals than by intellectual deficiencies. Yoga begins with the mind, as this is the part of citta (consciousness) that comes into contact with objects and creates the feelings. Yoga is a mental discipline for restraining the fluctuations of thoughts, so that consciousness (citta) is kept in an unoscillated, steady and stable state. It is a course of conduct for gaining a steady state of citta [consciousness]. Coordinating the intellect of the head with the intelligence of the heart archives integration between the two...This union of the head with the intelligence of the heart does take place through Yoga sadhana.
— Yogācārya B.K.S. Iyengar, Core of the Yoga Sūtras


Practicing Viparita Chakrasana requires quieting anxieties of the mind/ego that may tend to dominate to let the experiential understanding within rise. On this day, I was practicing after the kids class. Children in a balanced state are able to act quickly and joyfully without dwelling on thoughts and worries. So  first I taught the class but later was learning from seeing their way of being. In childhood I suffered from anxiety and poor health and I never learned handstands or backbends. The brain has to be adjusted and quiet for me to be able to perform this pose. Through Iyengar Yoga, it is possible to reverse the negative experiences of formative years and become free in body and mind.

Once you have decided on a course of action that is good for you, you should not oscillate. A strong determination and discipline is necessary to succeed. If you waver, you will lose the track and disappointments are bound to arise.
— Yogācārya B.K.S. Iyengar, interview with teenage students on August 14, 1988.
Why should you practice yoga? To kindle the divine fire within yourself. Everyone has a spark of divinity in him which has to be fanned into flame.
— Yogācārya B.K.S. Iyengar

Finding the state of freedom within solitude


“In the same way, one can also contemplate each stage of an Asana or each movement of breath in order to bring the citta to a state of desirelessness. If consciousness is kept free from desire, it becomes pure. Mere withdrawal from the world does not in itself achieve this aim.” Excerpt From Commentary on Sūtra I.37,

Light on the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali,

B. K. S. Iyengar.

 

There is a space of “wilderness” within which can be accessed through practice....

“We enter solitude, in which also we lose loneliness…

True solitude is found in the wild places, where one is without human obligation.

One’s inner voices become audible. One feels the attraction of one’s most intimate sources.

In consequence, one responds more clearly to other lives. The more coherent one becomes within oneself as a creature, the more fully one enters into the communion of all creatures.” —Wendell Berry